EXACTLY! No one knew about me. I hide it so well. I have empathy really bad which is like a curse I think. Meaning I feel what people around me are feeling and sometimes can't decipher their emotions from my own. Which is weird I never picked up on his depression. I don't blame myself, I just wish I could've helped or if nothing else at least say goodbye. Hanging with him was the rare occasions where I played games for fun. We only played two games though. Guitar Hero and CoD Zombies lol.
It's good that you went to get help. A lot of people don't. I hope this is behind you now, or at least manageable. You're a good guy with a witty sense of humor, who helps out a lot on the site, and always have a joke or kind words to say. I really do appreciate your friendship. Thanks man.